Reaching thirty

one morning startled to find I am not this person

nor am I any of the persons

who woke in shock each day before

to find they were not this person either

I suspect I am not

the person I am now either

when the sun comes up I will be thirty

and upon me so many days have passed

in each of these forever unreachable days

the I who is not I

was always someone else

among all these people

I have never truly met a single one

sometimes in another's eyes I catch a glimpse of one of them

and in that moment they assume with doubt yet stubbornly

the guise of the person

about to be understood